who is zimmerman--the question

or; sniff sniff is that my own butt I smell again?
get used to it
is why we love the smell of our own farts
reminds us
like Tich Nat Han's flowers on his toilet
(he is so funny IN ENGLISH and charming--he picked my question from a bowl of many to answer I do have a way with an epigram)

when i'm not running on and on and on
slow down not speed up odd message breathe
rest smarter not longer

you fill your brain with stalin and wonder why you revert to panic as your resting mode. resting your body feeding your brain nightmares

it's research. I need to handle it. is why drawn to cho (not margaret, well, her too I mean Chod but pronounced "cho" not even that Tibetan's odd but I love sound.... is it merely the theatrics of Tantra i'm drawn to?), tong lin breath

I'm not even sure of my own sincerety in my beliefs. no wonder i don't take them seriously but if i don't take them seriously i'll never know...but u keep picking wrong like Goebbles picked Hitler and stuck so hard to his principle he oversaw personality

another reason we let stalins take over.

don't be so scared.
u will know what to do and be able to do it. Not like 5th--6th grade too scared of morning coming to sleep. They were wrong they didn't get you...vicious circle...the more they don't get you the weirder you get, not deliberate manipulation (tho i'm trying to learn-- so I can teach you and protect ourselves and heal ourselves) you don't have to live like a refugee

even if you are one
as long as you are less of
an
asshole
(smell familiar?)
every day.

they'll never put this in cement

and how is he related to this apocalypse I keep hearing about?

NEWSflash...if U R scared batshitless, u cannot do anything
u cannot do anything
if not batshit

uncertainty we all have to live with
on this little blue island
of misfit toys
whose daddies abandoned us
whose mommies disappeared

you scare so easily
working on it
i am not a storyteller I CANNOT TELL A STORY

work on it