reading soothes me. it's okay. it's excessive now cuz you're freaking

reading soothes me. it's okay. it's excessive now cuz you're freaking

it pulls me out of life. only I can't stay out of life 99% of the time

this is all prelude to actually writing.

I have to explain and explore and diddle and fiddle and justify like I'm on trial.
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Last week Annie (not her real name)  had me tape up  affirmations saying: I am not being judged. I have to change the error belief that I am being judged.

Q saw the notes and responded without reading: "oh, x used to do that."

 X being an old friend who turned out to be totally bonkers--Q has a lot of those.  Her way of saying how stupid taping up affirmations is without actually accusing me of being stupid or dorky or having more than a passing psychological resemblance to lunatic X.