just write it--first draft of a chapter in novel

It's okay to spiral. But bounce back . Like a spider. One of your companion animals. Grandmother spidert got her wrong.

Either get used to spiders, or give up camping.
I got used to spiders. Called those spindly other-worldly fast-moving horrors "Dad". Come sit beside me, Daddy Longlegs.

I did that  Fr. Face. Affirmations before I knew what ttherefore SEE?????hey were. [touch pad wonky. won't click properly. Stuck in "down click" position. Touch it and weird things happen. Doesn't do what you want. Ghost in machine. Mind of its own.

All errors are (see SEE????? above) are attributable to computer error. I can fuck up all I want til fixed. Operator untouchable. Error-free operator.

It's a sign from ghingod, mac, apple, same . Ththierngat should be god. God punished me for not capitalizing god.

as if he, er He cared about silly human designations of respect. silly.
rmined to write and now my computers gone wonky. A sign to STFU?
I was de

Suicides. three peeps  meet at aa meeting (sooo 80's) um CA? SLA? ha ha ha never been. "I'm just here reaseaching my play" yeah. right. U've been researching this play for 35 fucking years. maybe more. when will U get on with it????

Like Ray Campbell said about your scene. MOVE ON. No wonder you can't get anything done. Aspergers.It's not a big emotional drain sewage...no more than others...It's your BRAIN fucking it up. All this thinking you think is so important. It's not. Except to concince them u know what U R talking about
and
you have enough insight to move on. Gathered enough. Harvested. October.November.

teacher
nurses
psych hosp
focus on hosp as setting.
what works works.