Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Inner Child Speaks: too many NowZzz There iz no plural of Now

There Should not be a plural of now. You can correct, faster than they can detect an error, sometimes. That's not appropriate use of the gifts which all are given.
Nor iz hiding it in a bushel same thing.
No, in a cellar. Talents. The only book I remember my Babci having was a Golden Book or something of Bible Tales for Children.  She was not overly religious, I didn't have that horror,

-----human interuption. ANGER. edit. annoyance. edit. I want what I want which is to keep writing undesturbed I may never write this way again.
You always write the same way and you always write the same things. Go look at your journels NOOOOeeeezzzzz there is IS I tell you, some gold among the ashes. You have more ashes, you may have more gold. I don't know if shit burns but I imagine it does so don't worry about that NOW.

Now. Time to deal with humans. (owwww. please, nooooo) I am safe and cozy and warm and occupied by my own squirrel cage

which I hear over and over from others like me like you?
they say there's nothing wrong with me HOW could that be?

I want you to understand that I want you to understand. You do understand, no you think you do let me explain...I know what you are going to say so do you you don't remember? How can you not remember I told you and told you and told you. Well, the fact that you've so far had to tell me 3 times doesn't that prove MY CASE?

You fucking CASE? What are you talking about?
It's clear as mud to me. There isn't one me
You're spitting out the DSM3
DSM4 -R does not rhyme with anything
and by now there might be 7 or 8.
Because 7 8 9.
laugh, mofo, it's stupid.
Dogs dressed up as silly humans it's Stupid.
pr-excusing yourself in case you don't make it
NOW
NOW
NOW
you just might. fine
U R sooo running from teh NOWzzz. LOLs no plural of NOW.

I am not the same person today who promised to do this and thatnuts yesterday. I hope you do and do not understand I cannot write a sentence and be sure how I will want to finish THAT's how fast I change

like rapid bipolar

but tend to stay in the depression.
Maybe I am bipolar but even my highs feel like lows because my thinking is so skewed screwed.

feel like fear and not excitement. When I was little I was bathed in terror, but I could still pull an excitement rabbit out of my hat. No one entertained me because I seemed capable endlessly of amusing myself.

I can still do that I still do that I am 5.


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

a poem. This is the moment for you to change

Dummy.
uh
mmm

Change to what?
Now that starts the apocalyptic avalanche flowing.
An inspiration.
oh hot damn
I'm afraid.
It will be there later. There's no need for panic now.

I don't need to panic now.
And it's always now.

Into the zone
where one can focus
this may involve hocus pocus

which real is real I can't decide
which reel is real I can't decide

they are divide.
(that's grammatically correct in lolcat land R WE THERE yet?)

no, not yet!
is it soup yet ? no. not yet !

An awful joke
what do you feed lepers?
Pizza and pancakes.
oh, is that good for them?
1) Doesn't matter:                                                                 (I'm having trouble phrasing this)
we can slide them under the door,
2) No, but you can slide it under the door.
3) I'm not sure, but at least you can slide these under the door (the courage the freedom to move forward, to saying YES i am writing a POEM goddamn it

which is the lack of it is holding you back?

Courage (no no no no I can't I never have no no no not again (you can't leave it here, again. and again and again. and no, you're not a crybaby. Quite the opposite even as a baby your parents remarked on it. I'm a strong person beaten by demons my whole life oh wait, no there was that one time...
back in serenity
happy shitty life
shared

not people pinging like pinballs against my skull
again and again
blinding me Key Deer caught in the headlights do NOT feed-- I see that head of lettuce behind your back
back to is it courage or or
Freedom you lack
holding you back

what's my rhyme scheme? It rhymes when it does.

so there.
I mean, if you want a pear, crave a pear but only peach will rhyme (a poem a picnic on the beach?)
you detest the peach. its fuzz to your fingers is like fingernails on a chalkboard. But it must must rhyme so eat your lime...er...peach...er...pear (Odd how different are the ea sounds in peach n pear)

I can has write...poetry?
It's so elite so effeet (If I cannot spell "effete" does that mean I shan't use it? oh I did)
you see you carry on and at some point something you try is bound to work out
very British I believe I steal their usages. Some may find that elite and effete. But for me to change back to pure American brain would be false to me. The words are in my stream I shan't wait whilst we ponder non-sequitors)

over red bull infused coffee or tea
spoons I have measured my life out in
O! the queen we can see the footnotes now
Like Frodo when he dared look with a
ring on.

to be continued I am afraid
NO...this is where you choose

Time for blood pressure and kitty insuln
you peasant you
oh wow get beside me satan

I me (GOOGLE IT)
https://www.google.com/search?q=get+behind+me+satan&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&client=firefox-a
I don't know.
What time is it?
Now.
It's never not now.
Kitteh noes this
I always end my poem with a cat
elegent
elite
effete
*steps in hairball*

a FaceBook discussion about an equivocal* photo

it's like we're a group of blind people trying to describe an elephant. at some point we'll figure out just what's going on here. keep talking. validating. 
Do you ever truly know? No.

The uncertainty principle. Deal with it.
Just saw Trainspotting. Painful but necessary. Good movie. Just a touch of the bizarre. (That statement might have peeps wondering about my definition of "bizarre". YOU live nearly 2 decades in Key West and see if your definition of bizarre doesn't slide slide sliding
down that 
slippery slop. stet
I meant slope.

the blue of blue diamonds
of duck eggs
it seems there is a greater infinity of blues than of any other color. Does physics support this? Possibly. I wouldn't begin to know how to even phrase the question. 

I knew Google before you new Google. why does that matter? boosts my self-esteem: 

I'm faster than you. You may run faster but I think faster. But that is all. 
not better, just faster and sometimes into walls.

make it poetry and u can say any damn thing u want

trainspotting. cool movie. watched it once before and hated it. Boring, Depressing. Now I understand more. I could write my own trainspotting. Flamingo spotting.

I could...if I could...if I can. Do anything. Pray to a gods I don't believe in for a message that's been oh so very wrong in the past. I can't write life till I live it. I can sense it in others. no, i don't need to be on heroin to write a heroin /heroine movie

the irony of the name is too obvious to be able to have fun with. Not very clever.

ACAs have a habit of not finishing. THAT'S IT. I never finish so I no longer bother to begin. So how do I go about finishing something? I have no more obstacles in my way but for raging poverty which we all seem to have. It doesn't even make sense anymore--money has become intangible.

electronic
away with the wind
I guess I don't deserve a call-back. that sounds like Kelly

She is not RoboJunkie. She is fragile fragile fragile.

A reason for narcissists, like X in Uncle's life. describing the process of needing to have someone all up in your stuff

YOU WILL EDIT IT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, DUMMY.
IT MAY OR MAY NOT BE HAMLET (scale of one to HAMLET)yes this is unique enough and transparent enough it will do for a highlighter color)








*one of those words I wasn't sure of the meaning, but look up origin and makes perfect sense: equi=
vocal: voices. equal voices: too many equal voices. " 

 [1375–1425; (< Medieval Latin aequivocus identical in name = Latin aequi- equi- + -vocus, derivative of vōx voice"

Monday, October 14, 2013

young person suicide


  1. newstarshipsmell

    newstarshipsmell Musky Pawgazer Bold Member!

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    Loss: Christian Adamek, 15, hanged himself last week after he faced possible expulsion and criminal charges for streaking across his high school's football field during a game the week earlier
    More: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/art...stry-STREAKING-high-school-football-game.html

    More: http://blog.al.com/breaking/2013/10/sparkman_high_student_facing_d.html
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  2. cubby

    cubby Veteran Member Bold Member!

    This sex offender list, like alot of other stuff these days, is out of control, this child did nothing to be put on a sex offender list, it was a stupid prank and nothing more, how many times has this very thing been done on campuses all over the world? Expulsion, maybe, Sex offender, absolutely NOT!
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  3. TheMorningStar

    TheMorningStar is a Catcus Bold Member!

    The Youtube video is down but rumor has it that the kid was wearing boxers while "streaking".
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  4. cubby

    cubby Veteran Member Bold Member!

    Even more stupid if he had on his underwear, what did he expose to warrant being put on sex offender list? I'm guessing (obviously) that what upset him enough to commit suicide is the sex offender list and not the expulsion, kids get expelled for less every day, but the silly stuff they are threatening to put kids on a sex offender list is just delusional.
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  5. CbabyRKO

    CbabyRKO Trusted Member

    Unfuckingbelievable. Actually wait this is Alabama so no it isn't. Poor kid only in the South could your life get ruined over a harmless prank like this.
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  6. Kelly Hammonds

    Kelly Hammonds New Member

    How gut wrenching. Jesus, kid. The pain and terror he was feeling was probably enormous but it gets better! I will never understand suicides (except chronic pain, I totally totally get that) but for fucks sake there is no way it would have gone through. I am sorry for his family. Being a mother to 2 teenagers and a preteen I know the emotional roller coaster these kids live on but if any of mine were to do that - ah, fuck. I just don't even know how I would endure it.
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  7. TheMorningStar

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  8. cubby

    cubby Veteran Member Bold Member!

    Your eyes are much better than mine, I could only see a vague human like figure running across a field, couldn't tell if there were boxers or not.
  9. TheMorningStar

    TheMorningStar is a Catcus Bold Member!

    I have a big monitor but yes, it is tough to tell.
  10. trojo

    trojo Active Member

    Such a senseless tragedy.

    This is pretty big news in my area. A lot of people around here blame the principal. I'm not sure that the principal is the one to blame of course-- he's not the one that wrote Alabama's draconian RSO laws-- but he has become the scapegoat in the eyes of many. In fact, the principal doesn't even say "he will have to be an RSO", he just says these kids don't think about the legal consequences of what they do. Which they don't, but when have 15 year-olds ever thought about consequences? But now the principal may soon realize that saying anything other than "no comment" to the media in regards to an ongoing investigation has potential consequences as well...
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  11. Lachina

    Lachina La Mera Mera Bold Member!

    He was wearing boxers. Sonofabitch senseless.
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  12. sgr1966

    sgr1966 Active Member

    If he wasnt playing with his penis how could it be indecent exposure, isnt it just exposure if your naked?
  13. Steadfast

    Steadfast Member

    This is the toll which zero tolerance policies cost to society. So fuck the Principal, fuck the school and fuck us all for letting shit like this happen.
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  14. Dutchesse

    Dutchesse Member

    NO FUN ALLOWED

    Poor kid. Who are these pearl-clutching morons causing all this fuss over a naked butt?
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  15. Obsolete

    Obsolete Veteran Member Bold Member!

    The sad thing is, he probably wouldn't have ended up on the SO list or been handed any real punishment. This would have all blown over and he would have been remembered at his high school for years to come. Unfortunately he couldn't see past the here and now.
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  16. DEZPICABLE ME

    DEZPICABLE ME New Member

    This is so sad and awful, poor kid. I hope who ever brow beat him about his prank feels awful. Totally ridiculous...a sex offender? really?
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  17. TeeJay

    TeeJay Active Member Bold Member!

    He wasn't even naked. How is it lewd if he wasn't naked?!?!:mad:

    I bet if a girl showed her boobs no charges would be filed. She would have been labeled a slut or whore, but I doubt any charges would be filed. What do you all think?
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  18. Obsolete

    Obsolete Veteran Member Bold Member!

    An underage girl here in Oregon was charged with distribution of child pornography for texting a picture of her boobs to a boy.

    Arizona: http://www.kvoa.com/news/teen-charged-after-sending-naked-pictures-to-13-year-old-boy/

    Michigan: http://www.mlive.com/news/ann-arbor/index.ssf/2009/02/dexter_teen_admits_to_criminal.html

    Pennsylvania:http://breakingthelawtv.com/sexting-teen-charged-thanks-to-her-mom/

    Ohio: http://m.digitaljournal.com/article/261082?doredir=0&noredir=1
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  19. TeeJay

    TeeJay Active Member Bold Member!


    Those are all pics sent via text. I'm talking about flashing boobs. It seems like flashing boobs is encouraged almost everywhere. ALMOST
  20. Obsolete

    Obsolete Veteran Member Bold Member!

    A lot of states don't have a law against going topless, unless you're underaged. 2 of my friends were suspended for school for mooning kids out of the back of a truck after class, it was too long ago to remember if they were charged with anything or not but I remember they were in deep shit.
  21. TeeJay

    TeeJay Active Member Bold Member!

    I heard about it not being against the law in some states, but didn't know about age restrictions. I flashed and mooned all the time in school. I guess now days I would be in prison. I never streaked in the quad, but I would moon or flash out of a bus window. I never got in trouble though because no one told on me.

    I wonder what would have happened if it were a girl in a bathing suit streaking across the football field. I probably shouldn't get too off topic, though.:( My point is I don't think girls get into as much trouble because guys like that kind of behavior from girls. gnomesayin
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  22. Obsolete

    Obsolete Veteran Member Bold Member!

    I agree, I think generally people take it more seriously when it's a boy because OMG a penis is bad bad bad. I honestly don't think he would have been convicted of anything though.
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  23. TeeJay

    TeeJay Active Member Bold Member!


    I don't think he would have been convicted either. If anything, I think the community would have supported him.

    HE WASN'T EVEN NAKED. (not yelling at you. kind of face palming that there was even talk about any type of charges.)